Something's Different in My World Today

Peter Crouch Sex Machine

2006-06-17T03:27:11Z

How can you not love a 6'7" English guy doing the robot?

angeltara @ 2006-04-09T22:39:00

2006-04-10T03:41:33Z

My boys won today, 2-1. It should have been higher than that, but it's alright.

I've got a weird tan line now.

Peyton scored his first goal in soccer yesterday during his game.

angeltara @ 2006-04-08T19:10:00

2006-04-09T00:10:17Z

You know, I thought about the book thing...and things will work out for me. They always do.

Sarah and Josh will be here later. I don't know what we're going to do tonight. Tomorrow, we're going to go to the boys' game and then later on go to the hockey game. That is the plan. It depends on how much I think I have to do for my Psychology research project. I may or may not go to the hockey game.

The boys play tomorrow against the team from Spindletop, which is one of the Beaumont leagues. It should be fun. They had to play today and play tomorrow. I don't know why we started a week early, but that's alright. We won last week. The score was 3-2. Travis and Carlos scored. They are two of the four new players on my team.

My boys are ranked 19th in the state! We are ranked higher than a couple of the teams that have been playing in the higher division than us. This is awesome.

angeltara @ 2006-04-07T21:20:00

2006-04-08T02:33:55Z

If the books don't change, my books for the fall semester will be massively expensive. I plan on taking four classes: Microbiology, a Math class, Anatomy and Physiology 1, and First Aid and Safety.

For my classes I need:
First Aid and Safety 2 books
Microbiology 5 books
Math 3 books
Anatomy and Physiology 5 books

So a total of 15 books. Those 15 books cost $661.25 for used books. And only one of those is a course that is only for Nursing majors. How crazy is that? That makes me want to cry. I think my books are almost as much as my classes will be. Plus, I'm going to have to buy a bookcase to keep all the books in. Right now, I keep my books in my car until I need them, but that is only three books. Where am I going to fit fifteen unless I buy a bookcase?

Ugh.

angeltara @ 2006-04-03T22:38:00

2006-04-04T03:38:16Z

This weekend was one of the best I've had in a long time.

angeltara @ 2006-03-13T23:45:00

2006-03-14T05:50:31Z

Sarah, the news that I had a few weeks ago is in a Friend's Only entry...so you need to log in to read it.
I just wanted to let you know that...don't know how often you actually log in.

I will do a more thorough post on things later on.

Right now, I'm listening to my favorite song and am reading some mail from a high school friend of mine who I talked to for the first time on Sunday since 1999. I've missed Stephanie and it has been good to hear from here. She brought notice to some things I've forgotten.

"be yourself...you always have been"

angeltara @ 2006-03-05T17:38:00

2006-03-05T23:54:26Z

I think I'm going to take four classes over the summer. I'll be taking Lifespan Growth and Development (a Psych course), Personal Health (a Kinesology course), Pre-Algebra Math (I suck at math), and a Speech course. Then I will take two science classes and a math class during the fall semester: whatever Algebra it is I need, Anatomy and Physiology 1, and Microbiology. Then in the spring semester, I will have to take a math, Anatomy and Physiology 2, and Pharmacology. I will be able to apply for admission to the Nursing program next March and then if I get accepted, I will start it that summer. Then, a year or a year and a half later I'll be a nurse. I'm very excited. To get accepted in the program, I have to take a test and pass it. I also have to have a 2.5 GPA in Psychology 1, English 1, and Anatomy and Physiology 1 or 2. I have higher than a 2.5 in both English and Psych right now, so that's good.

Besides that, I've been productive today. I took my iPod in to be fixed. They have to send it off, so it'll be two or three weeks before I get it back. I returned a purse to Target and got some things there. I had to drop off and pick up a prescription. I went to the library to get some books for my research paper in Psych. I went by the bank and ran to a couple of other places.

Mom and I took Jefferson and Winston for a walk. And then we took Harrison and Sheldon. Harrison has never been on a walk before, because he'd never do a leash. He was so happy. He was running and jumping. That's the most energy we've seen out of him in long time. Then, when we got back, Billy and I took Jefferson and Winston again.

Now, I'm going to go finish washing clothes, do my Psychology homework and watch the Oscars.

angeltara @ 2006-02-28T22:57:00

2006-03-01T04:58:11Z

Jefferson is coming home tomorrow. How exciting!

Some other stuff happened today, that will likely go under a friend's only entry in the next couple of days.

angeltara @ 2006-02-26T10:55:00

2006-02-26T17:05:37Z

I've had a pretty good weekend.

School is going well. I got 9 out of 10 on my first English paper. My second one is due tomorrow, and has already been submitted. It kind of sucks, because I made stupid mistakes on the English paper...had I not, I'd had have had a 10. We had our first sociology test and I made 108 out of 110 on it. All my other grades in there have been either the highest they can be or one point under. I think psychology is pretty much the same. We've only done a couple of graded things in there right now. I told Mom I was smart, and she was like, "You've always been. You just cared so much about your social life in high school." Which is completely true. But, I'm getting it done and I'm getting it done right.

I spoiled myself this weekend. I figure that I've been doing well in school and at work, so I should. I got a pedicure and a manicure yesterday. It's been a long time since I've had my nails done. It's different, but I like it.

I'm incredibly excited about Brandi possibly moving to Houston. It will be so much fun to have someone else here.

I have a ton of things I need to do today, so I don't know why I'm still here. I have some homework I want to get started on. I need to clean out my car from last weekend. I need to clean my room and bathroom. I need to carpet clean. Billy's son and one of his friends are supposed to come over later on, so I won't be able to do anything then.

Oh, perhaps the best news...Jefferson will either be back home today or sometime early this week! He's been gone for nearly a month.

Time to get started on everything.

angeltara @ 2006-02-22T22:53:00

2006-02-23T05:07:07Z

I just want to be left alone. By everyone, except for like one or two people. Oh, and Justin Mapp. He can bother me now. That'll be allowed.

I'm tired of the drama that has surrounded my life for the last four or so months. I want to be able to do what I need to do and not have to worry about the other stuff that shouldn't be going on.

This isn't meant to antagonize anyone or make anyone hurt or mad. I just want it to stop. I'm so tired of it all by now, that I will do what I can to make it stop. If I feel that that means I need to become a recluse for awhile and just do schoolwork and go to work, then that's what I'm going to do.

That's what inhumane crying bitches who don't care about anything at all do anyway, right?

angeltara @ 2006-02-20T22:21:00

2006-02-21T04:49:47Z

This weekend was Jessica's wedding. It was beautiful. I'm glad to see them happy. Justin has waited a long time to be with her. It was great to see everyone again: Jessica, Molly, Mandy, Sheila, Robin, Brandi, Teresa, Norma, etc. It was good to hang out with the group again. We should definitely do it more often. As my Dad said, we've all changed, and yet we haven't. It's nice to know that.

There were some things that were said that were so true, like when Brandi was describing me. Haha. I'm not going to get into that. It was funny, though.

Hopefully, soon, I'll get to hang out with a couple of other people I've not seen in awhile. I'm looking forward to that.

I'm not very articulate today, as I've been up since four this morning. I woke up and couldn't go back to sleep, so I stayed up. Right now, I'm exhausted out of my mind.

I will find out either tomorrow or Wednesday whether or not I will need surgery on my nose and possibly my sinuses again. If I have to have surgery, I'm going to try to do it sometime in March. I have too many papers and finals in April and May. I can't miss that much class. Although, the doc says I should be able to have the surgery on a Thursday and be back at work on Monday. So, techinically that would be one Psychology class (which is a lot if you only have one a week and cover a chapter a week). We'll see how it all works out.

I'm going to head to bed on a quote from Jason Mraz's newest journal entry.

"Don’t ever think life is dull and will stay the same forever, be it blissful or evil, I guarantee you CHANGE IS POSSIBLE."
Jason Mraz

angeltara @ 2006-02-16T22:53:00

2006-02-17T04:53:46Z

This weekend is going to be awesome.

angeltara @ 2006-02-14T20:38:00

2006-02-15T02:42:34Z

So, I will likely have to have surgery again. Not on my sinuses this time, but on my nose. The doc is trying to stay away from my sinuses, since they were the worse ones he's ever done. Apparently, there is a problem with my septum that if we correct it, the sinus issues should start to calm down some. So, the doc is going to go in and break my nose basically.

He has me on major antibiotics and steriods right now to see if this will help first.

I'm miserable.

angeltara @ 2006-02-12T22:42:00

2006-02-13T04:44:15Z

I hate that no matter what I do, I will never feel safe. I will never feel alone. This thing is haunting me. I want it to stop. I want to not have the feeling that someone is watching me all the time.

And I really don't want to have to go to court to get that. But, you've got to do what you've got to do.

angeltara @ 2006-02-09T22:36:00

2006-02-10T04:37:18Z

I don't have a whole lot of homework to do this weekend, so I get to relax, clean, and watch the Olympics. It sounds oddly wonderful.

angeltara @ 2006-01-27T19:55:00

2006-01-28T01:55:35Z

I'm incredibly sad right. I think they're giving Jefferson away tomorrow. Since the dogs are always fighting, they think that will help. I don't want that to happen.

angeltara @ 2006-01-24T22:49:00

2006-01-25T04:49:42Z

Right now, life is...complete. I'm very content and happy.

I am really liking my classes. I think I will do well in them. My inscructors so far are awesome. I've met a few people in the classes that I think I could become friends with. I don't think I will get that stressed out about it, which is something that I was worried about.

Work is going well. I'm trying to pick up some extra hours to make sure I can take care of the things I need to take care of. I'm having more and more fun at work, so I don't mind.

I talked to someone last week that I hadn't talked to in almost a year. It definitely wasn't a pleasant talk. It was preceded by some unpleasant happenings. It didn't have to happen, but it did. I didn't mind talking to him and I was certianly used to the way he treated me, I just didn't need it at that point of time. But, what can you do? One of our patients told us a story about how she fell while babysitting a three year old girl. The three year old girl told her that, "Sometimes unfortunate things happen." That's the way I look at this particular thing.

The only thing that I'm really having a reoccuring issue with is that I dread going to sleep. I worry that I didn't get everything done. I also end up waking up with nightmares. That happens like every other night. I wake up, and then it's hard to get back to sleep. Saturday night was bad. I had gotten sick from the chinese food Sarah and I ate early in the day. It was hot in my room, so everytime I'd wake up, it'd take me awhile to fall asleep, especially since I was not feeling well. I'll get over it, though. I always do.

I work, go to class, do homework, and sleep. And you know what? I wouldn't have it any other way.

I'm really enjoying life right now.

angeltara @ 2006-01-17T22:42:00

2006-01-18T04:46:36Z

I will be going to friends only. Likewise, so will my MySpace. I feel have to do this. If you're not listed as a friend and you want to be, comment to this post.

Release your inner visions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield.

angeltara @ 2006-01-16T22:13:00

2006-01-17T04:13:36Z

I just want to be left alone.

angeltara @ 2006-01-15T17:38:00

2006-01-15T23:45:23Z

So, first things first. I got a new car today! It's a used new car. It's a 2005, but it was barely driven.

http://www.scion.com/showroom/xa/gallery/

Not something I would choose to begin with, but it's very nice. It grew on me. It's blue!

I start school on Tuesday. That's when my internet course starts. I don't actually have class until Wednesday. I'll have English online, Psychology on Thursday nights, and Sociology on Monday and Wednesday nights. I made a B in my Humanities class, which I'm very proud of.

We had soccer practice yesterday, however I didn't make it. The oil had been changed in my car early yesterday, and when I was on my way to the soccer fields, it started smoking. Now, I've had alot of problems with my car, so I think that's why Billy decided to do this. Apparently, he had been talking to these people for awhile. I don't know what made him do that, but I'm happy.

Things have been going well. I'm ready for the busy-ness to start.

angeltara @ 2006-01-08T22:52:00

2006-01-09T05:07:24Z

I've been doing a ton of thinking lately. Just about everything.

I finished my Humanities class yesterday. I'm so glad that's done. I start my first real semester a week from Tuesday. It should be interesting.

I was going to type more, but I'm talking to Sarah right now, so I'm not thinking much about what I wanted to post about.

angeltara @ 2005-12-31T05:36:00

2005-12-31T05:40:19Z

I confess that in 2005 i...

( ) stayed single the whole year.
( ) got your first kiss
(x) kissed someone new
( ) made-out for the first time
(x) made-out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
(x) kissed in the rain
(x) fell in love
(x) fell in love with a fool
(x) had your heart broken
( ) broke someone else's heart
(x) had a stalker
(x) had a good relationship with someone
( ) questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) gotten someone else pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
( ) had a gay marriage
( ) kissed someone of the same sex
(x) dated someone you'll never forget
(x) done something you've regretted
( ) lost your true love
(x) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under misteltoe

WORK/SCHOOL

( ) got a promotion
(x) got a pay raise
( ) changed jobs
( ) lost your job
( ) quit your job
( ) dated a co-worker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
( ) got straight A's
( ) met one teacher you really like
( ) met one teacher you really hated
( ) found the subject you love
( ) failed a class
( ) cut class
( ) skipped school
( ) got into a fight with a classmate
(x) did something you were proud of
( ) discovered a new talent
( ) gave the teachers a reason to teach
(x) proved yourself an idiot
( ) embarrassed yourself in front of the class
( ) fell in love with a teacher
( ) got a lead in the school play
( ) made a varsity team
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget
( ) got sent to the office

OTHER

( ) painted a picture
( ) wrote a poem
( ) ran a mile
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
( ) double-dipped
( )skinny-dipped
( ) went to a sleepover
( ) went to camp
( ) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
(x) flirted shamelessly
( ) visited a foreign country
( ) visited a foreign state
( ) cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lost something important to you
(x) got a gift you adore
(x) realized something new about yourself
(x) went on a diet
( ) tried to gain weight
(x) dyed your hair
( ) came close to losing your life
( ) someone close to you died
( ) went to a party
(x) drank alchohol
( ) drank alchohol underage
( ) tried drug(s)
(x) got drunk
( ) got arrested
(x) read a great book
(x) saw a great movie
( ) saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
(x) saw your favorite band/artist live
(x) saw someone famous in person
(x) did something you want to tell everyone
( ) Enjoyed this year overall

angeltara @ 2005-12-31T04:51:00

2005-12-31T05:15:08Z

Stolen from Steve and Jared, since it's basically two surveys combined.

1. Was 2005 a good year for you?
Not really.

2. What was your favorite moment of the year?
Probably my birthday and Jason Mraz.

3. What was your least favorite moment of the year?
April and May... I was in the hospital.

4. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Spent two months in the hospital.

5. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Didn't make one, and probably not.

6. Where were you when 2005 began?
Asleep, I think. I know I'm old.

7. Who were you with?
Myself.

8. Where will you be when 2005 ends?
at joe's lasses place

9. Who will you be with when 2005 ends?
Probably at my house working on my paper.

10. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nope.

11. Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?
Nope.

12. Who did you miss?
I miss my sister and her family all the time. I miss my Dad all the time. I miss my friends who live away from me. I will always miss Kyle. Hard to believe that it's been nearly six years. And I miss Matt. That guy understood me better than anyone ever has. Too bad we argue too much. We're too much alike, although neither of us will admit it to the other.

13. Who was the best new person you met in 2005?
I met a few.

14. What was your favorite month of 2005?
Umm. June, for many reasons. I was finally out of the hospital.

15. Did you travel outside of the UK in 2005?
You can tell that this question is from Steve's part...no, I didn't travel outside of the U.S.

16. How many different states did you travel to in 2005?
What?

17. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
Health!

18. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
All of April and May, since I couldn't eat. And Jason Mraz!

19. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I stayed at a job for over a year. Almost two years now. And, no major depression episodes in five years. First time that's happened since I was 14.

20. What was your biggest failure?
My health.

21. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Ha! This is funny. Damn migraines, sinus surgery, gallbladder removal, not being able to eat, more stomach surgery and I think that's all. Maybe.

22. What was the best thing you bought?
School.

23. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Huh?

24. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Humanity.

25. Where did most of your money go?
Bills, books, gas, and now school.

26. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
School and Jason Mraz.

27. Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005?
The beginning of the year, yes. Shane and I would drink wine several times a week.

28. Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005?
Nope.

29. How many people did you sleep with in 2005?
More than one.

30. Did you treat somebody badly in 2005?
A few people.

31. Did somebody treat you badly in 2005?
Yeah.

32. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Happier.
ii. thinner or fatter? The same.
iii. richer or poorer? Richer.

33. What do you wish you'd done more of in 2005?
Enjoyed my time.

34. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Being sick. I know it keeps coming up, but yeah...it was a big deal.

35. Did you fall in love in 2005?
Yeah.

36. What was your favorite TV program(s)?
ER, Grey's Anatomy, Desperate Housewives, and Lost.

37. What song will always remind you of 2005?
Sometimes You Just Can't Make It On Your Own by U2 and Lonely No More by Rob Thomas. Those songs would come on VH1 when I was in the hospital. I would always wake up when those two songs would play.

38. How many concerts did you see in 2005?
One.

39. Did you have a favorite concert in 2005?
Mraz!

40. What was your greatest musical discovery?
For 2005? James Blunt, Matt Wertz, Marc Broussard. I pretty much listened to everyone else prior. Oh...and U2. I like quite a bit of their music, now that I've listened to them more.

41. What was the best book you read?
I read quite a few when I was in the hospital and I don't remember them, since I was drugged up. Likely a Dean Koontz, though.

42. What was your favorite film of this year?
Sin City and Jarhead. Steve, I'm proud that you finally saw Schindler's List. Haha...and the Alligator movie, Sarah!

43. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
23. Sarah, Justin and I went bowling. Then we came home and I don't know what we did. Probably played Mario Party. Then we went barhopping downtown. I managed to spill half a beer on my phone. It worked the next day, though! And is still working.

44. What did you want and get?
For the year? Healthier, iPod, and school.

45. What did you want and not get?
To not be lonely.

46. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Being healthier. I keep repeating that, but yeah. And going back to school.

47. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
Scrubs and jeans.

48. What kept you sane?
Mom.

49. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Jake Gyllenhaal. Does Justin Mapp count as a celebrity? He's up there too.

50. What political issue stirred you the most?
Oh wow. I'm not going to get into this.

51. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005.
I'm strong enough to get through anything.

52. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"It's when you cry just a little, but laugh in the middle,
that you've made it." Tonight, Not Again by Jason Mraz.

angeltara @ 2005-12-24T23:13:00

2005-12-25T05:32:57Z

So, I'm sitting here drinking Sparkling Red Grape Juice and listening to Jason Mraz on my IPod. I don't know if life could get any better.

Mom and I were heading out to my Aunt and Uncle's in Port Arthur this morning when we decided to hit up another Best Buy to see if they had any video IPods. They had gotten in ten last night, and had six left after I got mine. We were there at like 9:30. They told me that all they had were the black ones, which I was fine with, since that was the color I wanted. Mom got me the IPod, Mario Party 7, and the new Dean Koontz book for Christmas. It seems like the last few years I've gotten a new book (usually Jonathan Kellerman) and the latest Mario Party for Christmas.

We drove through Pinewood before going out to Port Arthur. It doesn't look at all like the same place. The beautiful forest I used to live in is so barren now. I nearly started crying. It didn't look like home at all.

I had fun spending time with my grandmother, aunt, uncle, cousin, and his wife. We watched movies, talked, and ate. It was good to catch up.

On the way home, Mom and I stopped to see Terry and Shirley. They are like grandparents to me. They are living with my Dad, because their house was torn apart by Hurricane Rita. It was our first time in the house I grew up in since I graduated. Well, we moved out a few days after graduation. The house has changed so much. It seemed so small. And it didn't even seem like the house I grew up in.

I was supposed to be at Molly's tonight. I was going to go to a bonfire with her at some old classmate's house. But, I couldn't get a hold of her. The plan was for me to stay the night out there. She was going to drive me back tomorrow, and then leave on Monday. But, that didn't work out.

Tomorrow, I plan to relax. I need to get the rest of my reading for my class done. I need to take the quiz that is due by the end of the day tomorrow. After that, I plan to straighten up in my room a bit, and wash clothes. Then, I'm going to play with the IPod some more and play Mario Party. We're making steaks tomorrow. Our big Christmas dinner will be on Monday when Billy's kids and his sister and brother-in-law come over.

Katrina will hopefully be over here next weekend. It depends on her cat. Right now, her cat is being tube fed and has to have injections every other day. They go back to the vet on Wednesday, and there is a possibility that Cesaer may have the tube pulled because he has been eating. If he does, they'll be here.

It's going to be crazy at work this week. Everyone is going to be trying to get in prior to the end of the year due to the deductibles and all that. I am not looking forward to that.

Now, I need help from anyone who has an IPod. It only put my music that is in my My Music folder on the IPod. And it didn't even put all the music there on it. And I have a bunch of songs in another program, how do I get them on the IPod?

I'm going to go play Mario Party.

Happy Holidays everyone!

angeltara @ 2005-12-20T20:33:00

2005-12-21T02:50:25Z

The following thirty players were invited to a thirty man training camp for the U.S. Men's National Team. I'm quite happy.

The full roster:
Goalkeepers:

Brad Guzan (Chivas USA) - I believe he will be the National Team Keeper in a few years.
Kevin Hartman (Los Angeles) -
Matt Reis (New England) - Love him.
Jonny Walker (Columbus) -

Defenders:

Chris Albright (Los Angeles) -
Jimmy Conrad (Kansas City)
Todd Dunivant (Los Angeles) - Yay! Even though he went to a bad team.
Frankie Hejduk (Columbus)
Ugo Ihemelu (Los Angeles)
Chad Marshall (Columbus)
Heath Pearce (FC Nordsjaelland, Denmark)
Eddie Pope (Salt Lake)

Midfielders:

Freddy Adu (D.C.) - Think he earned it by name only.
Brian Carroll (D.C.)
Ricardo Clark (Houston) - HOUSTON! He is a great player.
Clint Dempsey (New England) - White boy rapper. Let's see if he can do more than just hit the posts and crossbar this year.
Landon Donovan (Los Angeles) - Yeah.
Justin Mapp (Chicago) - My future husband! One of my favorites.
Kyle Martino (Columbus) - Another future husband! Who is growing his hair back. Another favorite.
Pablo Mastroeni (Colorado)
Pat Noonan (New England) - Another favorite! Love his vocie. The man can play. He normally is a forward, though.
Ben Olsen (D.C.) - Yay. He's back in the group.
Santino Quaranta (D.C.)
Steve Ralston (New England) - Rally is one of the most undersung players.

Forwards:

Brian Ching (Houston) - HOUSTON!
Nate Jaqua (Chicago) - Hot guy with a nice ass. Pretty good player.
Eddie Johnson (Dallas)
Chris Rolfe (Chicago)
Taylor Twellman (New England) - Another favorite! And former future husband until he got married.
Josh Wolff (Kansas City)